Plans

Life is funny.

God is funny.

I know it's not just me, but I feel like every turn I take, God changes my plans. Let's take college for example. The original plan was to go to community college for a year and then transfer to a private Christian University somewhere out of Texas. The problem was that I could not find any colleges that I thought would be a good fit for me. So, scratch private college. The next plan was to move to Florida, work for a year, and then attend a Florida college and major in film. Two months into living in a completely different city with no job, no family, and no community, I realized I would not make it. I had never been so lonely in a place and Satan was attacking in every way possible. I think my self esteem was the lowest it had ever been, and hopefully ever will be. So I nixed Florida and moved back to Dallas. I need a new plan. Alright, I will work for a semester and then go back to school at community college. Wait. Wasn't I suppose to be out of community college last year? I guess it wasn't God's plan. I guess I can suck up community college for another semester but that is it. Then I will transfer to Texas State and major in sociology or something. Oh, but no. It's not time. Drastic family changes happen and Dallas is where I'm suppose to be. Again. Really God?

I had been trying to get out of Dallas since I graduated high school, but God just kept frustrating my plans.

I am so thankful for this.

Throughout all this craziness God has taught me so much. The big thing I learned is to be content where I am in life. I did not like Dallas because I felt like I didn't have any really good friends here. But God heard my prayers and provided friendships in Dallas that will last forever. Another reason why I was not so fond of Dallas was I didn't feel like I was growing spiritually. But God knew this and through a good church and some great friendships, I feel like I am growing more than ever. The reality is that life would be a lot different if any of those plans had gone my way. I was still so young in my faith and would give in easily to sin. God knew that I needed time to heal in Dallas from past wounds and time to grow stronger in my relationships with friends, family, and most importantly, Christ.

As far as plans, I have kind of given up. Ok, maybe not given up, but I now come up with plans with a big disclaimer: God will most likely change this plan. But His plan is way better.

I'm excited about the rest of this semester. I have lot of plans to make videos and to travel a couple places. Then, after that I will work at Pine Cove for three months to work as a videographer. And then when I come back home in the fall, I plan on moving out and living in Dallas as I continue my education at none other than community college.

Yes. These plans sound good. But God, if you want to change them, please do.

His plans are always better.